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Post by lyly on Dec 30, 2007 18:40:50 GMT -5
;D I wish you by advance .... (coz I'll be not here) A HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008 !! wish it will be better than 2007, and all the goodness of everything for you ! and take care XO
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Post by ghost on Dec 31, 2007 13:21:28 GMT -5
prospero ano.. here's hoping '08 is better than '07.. anyone have big plans? we always like to do something unconventional.. tonight we're setting up a viewmaster slideshow.. vintage sites, disneyland & cartoons.. popcorn just for the hell of it while waiting for midnight.. have fun all.. ghost
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Post by lyly on Jan 2, 2008 11:03:32 GMT -5
the year has a good beginning for me my paintings are selectionned for an exhibition in October !!! it's anything who reunite artists from my district ... that's totally kick ass !!!
@pete : divorce ?? =( ?
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Post by lyly on Jan 2, 2008 12:04:08 GMT -5
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Post by lyly on Jan 3, 2008 15:12:12 GMT -5
I was at 50 kilos for 1 meter 70" before the holidays...I'm a LOT more now .. I already planned my future radical diet ...
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Post by ghost on Jan 3, 2008 16:19:06 GMT -5
stone = about 14 lbs.. am i right? i have to be careful around new year's/resolution time because i used to use that as a launchpad to lose too much weight.. this year i'd still like to just lose a little.. it scares me to be at this 'healthy' weight.. 135 lbs at 5' 9" in my bare feet! when i came up here to portland 2 years ago i was at 116.. (at my lowest during my eating disorder i was at about 105?) but i feel at least i have recovered as much as one can from anorexia.. (i'd just like to get back under 130 again.. ) but right now i'd rather keep my starbuck's hot chocolate and just deal with it.. smoking is the tough one, thumper.. god.. i couldn't even quit when i had pneumonia.. i had to do it twice for it to finally stick.. worth it though as the price of cigarettes is outta this world now.. you'll get there.. but i agree with pete.. if you can attack the drinking first.. smoking later.. 'cause you know how it is.. if you succeed in quitting smoking then in a moment while drinking that association kicks in and you're under the influence.. light a cigarette.. it's no good. ghost
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Post by ghost on Jan 7, 2008 15:25:32 GMT -5
i hate being sick! take good care of yourself, thumper.. mandy, i've been watching the news about the winds down your way.. do you ever notice they give malibu more press than anywhere else? not fair.. we've had winds here too, but i'm farther from the coast where gusts hit 93 mph! we have wind here at the gorge often and i'm scared because i'm surrounded by giant fir trees.. but they've held on for hundreds of years so i hope it's ok.. hope you and stephen have power? take care, ghost
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Post by sleepflower on Jan 8, 2008 6:52:09 GMT -5
Hi everyone and happy new year. Thanks for the kind thoughts. Sorry I haven't being around much lately. Ghost, Pete, Mandy...so sorry for the hard times that you've been having recently, and Thumper, get well soon and congratulations on not smoking/drinking. It's damned hard. to you all. x
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Post by ghost on Jan 8, 2008 14:32:54 GMT -5
welcome back sleepflower.... well i was writing in depressionfest but deleted it....again...... not having a good day hey, hi sleepflower! ;D wondering how it's going on the meds? thumper.. sorry you're having a hard time.. when you're sick you just have no internal resources to cope with the emotional stuff, i have found.. i could probably write in the depressionfest every day.. but i try to find one good thing.. right now on this freezing morning the first sip of my venti hot chocolate makes me a happy ghost! i seem to be having problems these days that make me wonder if i'm still dealing with anemia.. but i hate going to the dr just to find out.. guess i'll just take my vitamins and be in denial..lol? keep warm all, ghost
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Post by ghost on Jan 9, 2008 14:28:37 GMT -5
dont know how to do quote but if i could would of bought this up...... "after all who in their right mind wants to be friends with a whack job like me" ( to quote someone just click 'quote' in the upper right of their post and it does it for you.. then you just type your own stuff underneath.. mandy.. i think having early insecure attachment issues is at the root of so many people who have no clue.. they cross a spectrum in how they were affected by their caregivers and how they learn to respond to closeness with others as a result.. i have been 25 years with my hubby.. and he is ad also.. (was rescued from his folks as an infant/skinny & covered in rash/listless & taken by relatives).. as dysfunctional as it is we stay together knowing we're a match.. we don't ever get too close.. i secretly know that if i am too nice to him that he avoids me.. and i have found that as painful as my lonely existence is, when he was close to me i became bored and disappointed at some deep level, like it was missing something critical i needed.. and i went kinda berserk in my behavior.. i think this guy was genuine.. just got overwhelmed.. maybe he knew he would and hoped this time it would be different, but felt his own pressure to be what he thought you or anyone else would want him to be.. did that make sense? sounds like you have a good understanding of the situation and allow him to own responsibility for the breakdown of the relationship without blaming.. which is positive.. but understanding doesn't makes it feel much better.. pete, fortunately i never had that kind of physical abuse.. just a few critical episodes.. but somehow i still got the message you did.. and i beat myself up endlessly in my head verbally.. it's the only way i feel like i can guard myself is to be right there with 'hey moron, shut up!' to try and stop myself from walking into possible hurts.. it works lousy though.. haha! also i just don't believe at all that most therapists are educated really about ad as we know it.. they have only general background on the subject or select ones know something about childhood ad/rad.. i wish they'd listen to us.. i realize that my biggest coping mechanism is that i reach a point of emotional exhaustion and then i start making this 'decision' that i don't care.. (it's not true.. but it gives me a break).. it must be how i got through the craziness of home.. it has caused me great problems in life.. to reach a point of not caring about more and more important things just because i couldn't cope.. ghost
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Post by ghost on Jan 9, 2008 23:49:58 GMT -5
whenever i add new cooties it doesn't allow me to change their old names.. haha.. so now there is 'cool' (2 cents) , 'tongue' (sad) & 'cry' (depressed) .. also old posts may seem a bit odd with the out of context smileys.. sorry.. ghost
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Post by lyly on Jan 10, 2008 11:27:02 GMT -5
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Post by ghost on Jan 10, 2008 14:02:29 GMT -5
Cool! Oh, - you didn't add these and others you have found to your "cootieland" page on brensgumbyland. Maybe if they were there, we could use them and not have to worry about other icons changing? Just a thought - then we could use different dancing bananas and other cool ones. Like I said - just a thought - no criticism - you're doing a great job here, m'lady. I don't want to beat a dead horse - , stir the pot , or be a drame queen . you know pete, i haven't updated cootieland in ages.. i forget it's there! i'll go see what's up there & what's not.. i collect cooties everywhere.. i even have snape! good luck on your exams, lyly! keep up your protein.. seafood is brainfood.. ghost
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Post by ghost on Jan 10, 2008 14:04:32 GMT -5
p.s. thumper, is it just me or is your avatar not coming up? i keep just seeing a red x.. that happens sometimes inexplicably.. if it's not coming up i can reupload it for you if you want? ghost
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Post by ghost on Jan 10, 2008 14:34:50 GMT -5
voila..
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