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Post by ghost on Feb 20, 2008 14:50:50 GMT -5
raining.. i think the tyramine/food restriction thing is the reason they don't prescribe MAO inhibitor meds very much anymore? a word of caution, i think you have to be just as careful with other meds too..
some people get great help from emdr.. but those of us with SI issues are often dissociative.. si works often because it triggers dissociation.. something we've had as a defense mechanism since childhood.. so things like emdr & hypnosis are not usually recommended in those circumstances.. (although hypnosis gave me no bad side effects..)
just ask lots of questions first, i always say.. ghost
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Post by raining on Feb 20, 2008 15:06:25 GMT -5
I was on Cipralex until one night it paralyzed my legs, arms and hands, at the same time as unable to breath, extremely high temperature to the point i thought i was going to pass out, so for that reason the psychiatrist wanted to prescribed something completely different. Im starting to get a cold and i know i cant take any kind of medicine for it, oh well give them a try though.
Did anyone have periods when they were younger when they would blank out, i choose not to remember my childhood (what i can remember) but when i was under 9 i would come back around with no memory as to where i had been mentally. it doesnt happen anymore though.
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Post by ghost on Feb 20, 2008 15:24:08 GMT -5
raining, i know there's stuff i must not be remembering.. although alot of my remote memory is very good.. whenever i've been in a room with my siblings they seem to come up with stuff that happened that i totally forgot and it blows me away! so i'm sure i've blocked stuff out.. i have tried to remember everything i can.. i am one of those who wants to know what went on.. it irks me to think bad stuff may have gone down when i was small and i don't have any power over at least remembering/knowing, you know? pete, yes, si/dissociation are tied together.. that's why it works, if it didn't trigger dissociation it would simply not hold the power it does as an addiction/mood alterer.. but as you say, you don't have a dissociative personality, so it could be very safe afterall.. i've heard it's best used like for vets that have those bad memories/flashbacks/nightmares.. they really need the relief.. but there is something to be said about dealing with trauma in more organic way.. like as it comes up? i would say if you have good reason, go for it.. if that's a question, then ask lots of questions weighing it with your therapist.. with so many therapists it's just like their latest new toy in their bag of tricks and they want to try it out.. with me, i'm dissociative enough that it was like one part of me pitted against my 'toxic' inner child.. 'they' wanted to get rid of her/erase her.. but i experience the 'her' as ME! it was terrifying.. i don't know how else to explain it.. i refelt the fear of them trying to kill me off, i guess..? just go in with questions.. ghost
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Post by ghost on Feb 20, 2008 15:41:09 GMT -5
we're all mad here..
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Post by raining on Feb 20, 2008 15:45:17 GMT -5
I like it when people say "How do you know that your not the sane one and the rest of the world is mad"
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Post by lyly on Feb 20, 2008 16:06:52 GMT -5
it's kind of a protection system to don't remember what happened ...
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Post by raining on Feb 21, 2008 5:28:09 GMT -5
Is it possible to get a doctors note excusing you from doing it on medical grounds because of your anxiety? It might be worth a try. Edit* Mandy Ive just realised and I'm so jealous you live in California, wouldn't want to swap for 'sunny' old England would you?
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Post by raining on Feb 21, 2008 6:21:42 GMT -5
I hope we have a nice summer, especially after last year all the floods were terrible. I dont like all the dull miserable weather but in the sun i also dont like showing my legs off!! I would definitely feel worse seeing all those girls in bikinis on the beaches, your right about the image thing. I would love to go to new york, very expensive trip though
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Post by ghost on Feb 21, 2008 14:17:30 GMT -5
i don't know how mandy feels about it.. but i spent the first 40 years of my life down in socal, in the LA area.. and i had Enough! i feel spoiled that i got to grow up there.. at the beach every day, it really was a great place to live until recently.. the cost just got sooo great.. our last year there in 2004 we got disneyland passports so we could go anytime we wanted, so we went all the time.. we totally Disney'd out before we moved up north!! (and we sold our tiny little 2 bdr house for about half a million bucks!$!) i did love that house, though, because we had a huge backyard surrounded by high ivy walls.. we put in apple trees and flowers and let our kitties outside everyday to play.. i keep an album of cali pix up here with all my kitties if anyone wants to see: friendlyghost.typepad.com/photos/friendly_ghost_photo_albu/index.htmlthe sad thing was all the quaint little beaches where i was a 'local' became taken over by the trendy, starbucks, rich people all wanting to be seen, then papparazi following after.. then tv shows! the OC & others.. our beaches became un bearable.. but i have my memories and home movies anyway.. i couldn't take the heat and smoke of one more summer/fire season with all the arsonists setting fires.. the people are so phony/fake/plastic.. my therapist was right on wilshire blvd. she was fake plastic too, i believe now.. it's all about the $$$ there.. i haven't missed cali once.. weird, huh? i'll take the forest & mountains for the rest of my life.. my new home.. and after a lifetime of suntans, i appreciate my anemic pale now and hope i don't get skin cancer after it all.. i've always wanted to go to the uk, though.. ghost p.s. mandy, for the last 2 times a dr wrote out an excuse for jury duty for me.. you should ask if you need to..
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Post by raining on Feb 21, 2008 14:34:32 GMT -5
I really couldn't be dealing with all those phony celebs and people, I would hate to have a vain shallow life that revolved around all that. The things that make me the happiest and all i want is a few close people to love, and like you ghost a nice big garden, I have a pear tree, cherry tree, plum tree and hazelnut tree. I also need it because I have 4 cats and a bunny who like their space.
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Post by ghost on Feb 21, 2008 14:53:01 GMT -5
exactly, raining.. i miss my garden there.. it definitely was the perfect place for kitties/bunnies.. my favorite valentine's day - hubby took me to the nursery and we spent the weekend putting in roses and lavendar.. and pink petunias.. we also ate raspberries right off our vines.. we haven't had the money to get our yard in shape up here yet.. it needs work.. maybe this spring? the reason i don't miss cali is it was lonely even amongst all those people.. i'm with you, i only need a few 'loved ones' and a home that gives me security/peace.. ghost
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Post by raining on Feb 21, 2008 15:20:11 GMT -5
I love my fruit My old neighbour used to have raspberries growing in his garden so i always used to go and pinch some he didnt really mind though. I couldnt live without having a couple of trees in the garden if i moved, and a small source of water, thats all my sanctuary right there.
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Post by ghost on Feb 22, 2008 12:13:56 GMT -5
very nice pix.. yeah, i got tired of the 100+ days just being a regular thing.. no winter, flooding rain.. and Earthquakes.. sheesh!! we had many and they scared me to death! i remember standing in our apt. watching the oak wall unit filled with books sway back and forth as the whole building rocked.. i never knew doorjams could bend! glass broken everywhere and phones out.. when we came up here the fridge repair guys knew we were from socal because of the velcro straps we had on the back of our fridge! (to hold it to the wall!) i'll stay up here in the pacific northwest with the volcanoes where i'm nice and safe.. haha. thumper, i'd be too chicken to cross the pond by air or ship, but if i ever did it'd be to go to england/ireland.. see london, stonehenge, kearney castle, maybe visit nick drake's grave in tanworth at arden? i like to take pictures in old cemeteries.. we're limited in age here in the states and i'd love to see older ones.. actually just drive looking for c.s. lewis-esque countryside would be nice? my son wants to go.. we are half brits and seem to be fans of so many things there, tolkien, beatles, monty python.. we'd be all over the place taking pictures like obnoxious tourists!! ghost p.s. you're right, mandy.. the old buildings, the bridges and riverboat.. just like portland, which is all rivers and bridges and old town..
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Post by raining on Feb 22, 2008 15:18:35 GMT -5
Thumper your right about not appreciating whats around us because Stonehenge Isn't too far from me but I'm ashamed to say i haven't visited it, Ive been to Glastonbury but have never actually stopped by to have a look....Would love to see it though. Oh ghost, on the issue of planes and boats, the last boat i was on hit bad weather, wondered if i was going to get of alive!!! I loved the pictures Mandy, The buildings are also interesting, different to whats over here
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Post by ghost on Feb 22, 2008 16:54:18 GMT -5
this is an ancient tree in the vancouver old city cemetery.. one of my favorites.. i've visited virgil earp's grave, you know from the OK corrall? it's up here.. bet you're closer to some old ghost towns where you are, mandy? and it's true about taking for granted what's right around you. i never even visited the figure 8 wall and i lived in LA all my life till 2 years ago.. never went to the famous cemeteries to see where the stars are buried or grohman's chinese theater or anything.. but being new up here, we've gone everywhere.. ghost
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