Post by emma on Jan 12, 2007 16:00:54 GMT -5
Had a good (horrible) one.
I was not in it. I just watched.
A handsome doctor, 45 and an 18ish black woman who is a student. Somehow they have a history where he sexually abused her. She was in love with him. Still is.
They end up living in a nasty appartment together. I watch the whole thing from outside looking into the apartment like a stage set. She is still in love with him but knows he thinks she is no more than garbage. But he wants her. He sends her signals that he lusts for her. This breaks her heart because she wants him but knows that he has no feeling for her, just wants to do her. She runs to the back room and studies.
He falls asleep on the couch in the front room. Wakes up and is all sweatty and dirty in his undershirt and boxers. He goes to her, and I know what he is going to do. She is asleep. He drenches a rag with ether and places it over her face. She wakes up and is conscious but immobilized. She panics and cries. Her last conscious words to him are "you are going to castrate me!" He takes a syringe and jabs it into her cheek injects the ether, then pulls the syringe in and out of her cheek violently. The dream ends.
In therapy we tried to analyze this. There were a few men that made sense would be the doctor, but it just did not sit well with me. When I left therapy I became really angry (what else is new) but I did not know why. I woke up in the middle of the night furious and realized...
The doctor is K!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HOw do you like them apples? I'm a sick mutha.
I was not in it. I just watched.
A handsome doctor, 45 and an 18ish black woman who is a student. Somehow they have a history where he sexually abused her. She was in love with him. Still is.
They end up living in a nasty appartment together. I watch the whole thing from outside looking into the apartment like a stage set. She is still in love with him but knows he thinks she is no more than garbage. But he wants her. He sends her signals that he lusts for her. This breaks her heart because she wants him but knows that he has no feeling for her, just wants to do her. She runs to the back room and studies.
He falls asleep on the couch in the front room. Wakes up and is all sweatty and dirty in his undershirt and boxers. He goes to her, and I know what he is going to do. She is asleep. He drenches a rag with ether and places it over her face. She wakes up and is conscious but immobilized. She panics and cries. Her last conscious words to him are "you are going to castrate me!" He takes a syringe and jabs it into her cheek injects the ether, then pulls the syringe in and out of her cheek violently. The dream ends.
In therapy we tried to analyze this. There were a few men that made sense would be the doctor, but it just did not sit well with me. When I left therapy I became really angry (what else is new) but I did not know why. I woke up in the middle of the night furious and realized...
The doctor is K!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HOw do you like them apples? I'm a sick mutha.