Post by raining on May 12, 2008 7:27:10 GMT -5
Warning *mentions SI*
I haven't been on for a while, Ive been lost in my own little void the last few weeks. I'm sorry i haven't replied to anyone's post yet I will have to go and have a catch up on whats been going on :-[but I hope everyones been doing fine.
Well firstly Ive found out that my nan who's 88 years old has bulimia I have to say I was very shocked, I think shes had it for decades from what I've been hearing from family members!. Shes very independent mentally and i don't think she will ever get help or change her ways which worries me a lot.
Also a couple of weeks ago I decided to text my mum after 8 years of no contact because i was feeling really depressed and thought sod it why shouldn't i have it out with her!
well i asked in the text to tell me woman to woman how she could have babies and neglect and abandon them but she ignored me so i text again asking why did she punish me by having me,
she text back and after a whole life time of not being loved by a mother a bit of the little girl in me wanted her to tell me she loved me but instead she text telling me to go drown myself.
I cried a lot before i could stomach to read the rest and she said that I'm good for a laugh and shes sat there laughing at me.
I haven't grown properly physically and mentally because of how she neglected me as a baby, not to mention what she did to me as a child! I hope this vile human gets her Karma one day!!!
Yesterday I hurt myself for the first time in a couple of months, i had been doing so well to resist the urges but i couldn't take it any longer, I'm not really beating myself up about it because it wasn't as bad as normal so that's something i suppose. *sigh*
Also i see there are some new members, Ive got some catching up to do.
Mia
I haven't been on for a while, Ive been lost in my own little void the last few weeks. I'm sorry i haven't replied to anyone's post yet I will have to go and have a catch up on whats been going on :-[but I hope everyones been doing fine.
Well firstly Ive found out that my nan who's 88 years old has bulimia I have to say I was very shocked, I think shes had it for decades from what I've been hearing from family members!. Shes very independent mentally and i don't think she will ever get help or change her ways which worries me a lot.
Also a couple of weeks ago I decided to text my mum after 8 years of no contact because i was feeling really depressed and thought sod it why shouldn't i have it out with her!
well i asked in the text to tell me woman to woman how she could have babies and neglect and abandon them but she ignored me so i text again asking why did she punish me by having me,
she text back and after a whole life time of not being loved by a mother a bit of the little girl in me wanted her to tell me she loved me but instead she text telling me to go drown myself.
I cried a lot before i could stomach to read the rest and she said that I'm good for a laugh and shes sat there laughing at me.
I haven't grown properly physically and mentally because of how she neglected me as a baby, not to mention what she did to me as a child! I hope this vile human gets her Karma one day!!!
Yesterday I hurt myself for the first time in a couple of months, i had been doing so well to resist the urges but i couldn't take it any longer, I'm not really beating myself up about it because it wasn't as bad as normal so that's something i suppose. *sigh*
Also i see there are some new members, Ive got some catching up to do.
Mia