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Post by ghost on Oct 6, 2008 17:56:42 GMT -5
mia.. the sick in the night is undoubtedly the meds.. i got so sick on ad's i couldn't even stay on any of them.. are you getting anxious? or is it mostly still depressive symptoms? i would really tell your side effect/feelings to your prescribing dr.. those drugs can make your brain just feel all kinds of weird stuff.. i hope you know that we here don't think suicide is the best thing to do.. although i know we all have the feelings.. so i'm not saying there's anything wrong with that.. i still grapple with it alot.. but please don't ever believe that it is the best answer.. you can get to the other side of this nightmare and look back.. it does get better and it's worth getting there.. by all means write it out all you need to help get through till thursday.. at least know you are being heard.. take care, ghost
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Post by raining on Oct 7, 2008 8:34:28 GMT -5
I told the doctor but he asked me if I woke from having a nightmare which caused me to be ill I said no and he didnt reply and moved on. ive also woke with panic attacks from them and been agitated, Im not hopeful to be honest, ive heard there no better than placebos? Ive been on 4 different kinds and just get bad side affects and no positives yet. Anyway Ive made up my mind, My nieces 7th is on Saturday, I couldnt do it right before then so I will have to wait untill next week to end it. Its not a life worth fighting for, im not worth fighting for. I cant stand being sat here right now going through another worthless day, Its got to end somewhere otherwise Ill still be sat here in another year thinking the same things. I may as well cut that out like I should have cut these last few years out, I never planned to still be around now and its just confirmed that I was right, I shouldnt still be here.
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Post by ghost on Oct 7, 2008 12:10:08 GMT -5
mia.. you could be right that the meds are making you feel worse.. i had to go on tranquilizers just to deal with the side effects of the anti-depressants.. suicidality & anxiety like you describe.. i felt so panicked that i believed i simply had to kill myself to make it end.. not true. please look back over your posts here in your 'void'.. you seem like a different person in the last couple of months than in all the posts before.. what changed right then? is that when you went back onto meds or changed meds? it is not hopeless, it just feels hopeless.. there is a difference.. i would really look back over what factor may have made you feel such enhanced depression/agitation and maybe find an answer.. with me i found out a med was causing the problem and went from utter suicidality to CURED.. i'm not kidding.. so please think about it, ok? ghost
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Post by raining on Oct 9, 2008 12:07:31 GMT -5
Thanks for the replies everyone, they help a lot Well, I went to the doctors just now for some more antidepressants as I'm running low, and ended up leaving with 20 bottles of milkshakes that help you maintain your weight, I'm supposed to have 2 a day! I wasn't expecting to be prescribed that I confessed I'm not eating and have lost half a stone in the last couple of weeks and was already underweight. I'm just so depressed I really am, I can feel myself wanting to curl up and die I'm holding the tears back again.
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Post by ghost on Oct 9, 2008 12:38:19 GMT -5
mia, i wanted to mention that i pm'd you..
i know that with my ed problems, lack of protein causes terrible lows/depression.. hopefully the shakes will put that back? it really does make a big difference.. i was vegetarian until it became clear that the ed was making my brain unable to even think straight.. had to finally just add back in lean white poultry just to maintain enough protein to have monthly cycles, etc.. take care of yourself,
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Post by raining on Oct 9, 2008 13:57:44 GMT -5
sorry to everyone I really am, I know everyone has their own problems and I didnt mean to anger everyone thats the last thing I wanted
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Post by ghost on Oct 9, 2008 15:20:30 GMT -5
mia, has anyone said they were angry? i hope not.. concerned yes.. ghost
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