Post by ghost on Aug 5, 2008 17:53:26 GMT -5
mandy,
i couldn't agree more with your sentiments..
(i know i posted on this subject here somewhere?)
i was told flat out that i had been molested by my father,
accused like i was lying, and i swear i remember not a hint of any such thing, yet i have very good remote memory, even of much of the trauma.. i agree there may be repressed memory in there as well, but i think it could have to do with another party (the pedophile next door maybe? hmm..?), but i think it's wrong for the 'pros' to make these kinds of accusations/decisions without damn good cause.. but they do..
in fact it has been an inherent problem in the system that has harmed clients and their families/loved ones rather than helped.. this is now known and understood now..
just like the wave of supposed 'satanic ritual abuse' victims that were 'uncovered' during hypnosis.. they had to go back and do therapy all over again for all the damage the false memories caused..
with me, i am sensitized to what my body experiences, after decades of numbness and dissociation where i ignored even injuries, now i am almost too connected to what my body feels, it's an ongoing anxiety issue that has a life of it's own.. like with the eating disorder, even maintaining a healthy weight/diet, i am still chronically food-phobic and have the same ongoing panic attacks over eating foods daily.. i'm just so sensitized, wired to panic & not trust anything, not trusting myself even, my body, my judgment and perception..
yes, it is bad enough what you went through.. and what i went through, without the stamp of sexual abuse to somehow validate our dis-ease.. always listen to your own discerning instincts first.. that's what i've learned after 20+ years of 'pros'..
ghost
i couldn't agree more with your sentiments..
(i know i posted on this subject here somewhere?)
i was told flat out that i had been molested by my father,
accused like i was lying, and i swear i remember not a hint of any such thing, yet i have very good remote memory, even of much of the trauma.. i agree there may be repressed memory in there as well, but i think it could have to do with another party (the pedophile next door maybe? hmm..?), but i think it's wrong for the 'pros' to make these kinds of accusations/decisions without damn good cause.. but they do..
in fact it has been an inherent problem in the system that has harmed clients and their families/loved ones rather than helped.. this is now known and understood now..
just like the wave of supposed 'satanic ritual abuse' victims that were 'uncovered' during hypnosis.. they had to go back and do therapy all over again for all the damage the false memories caused..
with me, i am sensitized to what my body experiences, after decades of numbness and dissociation where i ignored even injuries, now i am almost too connected to what my body feels, it's an ongoing anxiety issue that has a life of it's own.. like with the eating disorder, even maintaining a healthy weight/diet, i am still chronically food-phobic and have the same ongoing panic attacks over eating foods daily.. i'm just so sensitized, wired to panic & not trust anything, not trusting myself even, my body, my judgment and perception..
yes, it is bad enough what you went through.. and what i went through, without the stamp of sexual abuse to somehow validate our dis-ease.. always listen to your own discerning instincts first.. that's what i've learned after 20+ years of 'pros'..
ghost