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Post by ghost on Nov 11, 2007 20:49:17 GMT -5
i feel like i've been in that spinning place before.. spiraling anxiety in the face of human/social interaction? it's like a fight with ourselves in our own mind.. paranoia & hope of trust duking it out? you are not crazy.. hope you find something that grounds you.. i know it sounds awful, but sometimes feeling bad in some way is all that is familiar to me.. i start worrying about something else.. and that calms me.. haha.. i am crazy! but don't worry about posting/venting.. sometimes it helps get it all untangled.. ghost
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Post by sleepflower on Nov 12, 2007 11:00:19 GMT -5
Oh God, Thumper, Ghost...I agree so much. I've spent a couple of days working through a book on feelings/needs/SI and Thumper, you've hit it exactly there. When you talk about feeling that we shouldn't say how we are feeling and about the thoughts and the dark side: I went cold when I read that because it's so true. Especially about not wanting to bring people down, but if the roles were reversed, welcoming others to express themselves in a way we'd never let ourselves. It made me think of what I've been working through. One of the questions was to write about 'how I deserve to be treated'. I really struggled, because a part of me feels that I should be ignored and despised, but another part thinks that I should be 'allowed' to SI if I need to. I had real trouble differentiating between 'deserve' and 'want' - I know how I want to be treated, but do I deserve it considering that I feel utterly worthless? Does this make sense? I may have drifted slightly off topic, or I may be rambling, but I hope it's helpful. hugs back!
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Post by sleepflower on Nov 12, 2007 17:29:00 GMT -5
I thank you all every time I log in...thanks for being such great and understanding people and making me feel like I'm not the only one. I agree, Pete, it's so good to be able to express myself properly here, with like-minded people. Thumper, you're spot on there too! Wish I lived next door to you, I love you to bits!
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Post by sleepflower on Nov 13, 2007 6:39:03 GMT -5
I'm almost crying with laughter at the picture in my head of us all at our bbq!!!! Haha, I'll drink with you too! Bring a bottle (or two, or three...) We could have it on Christmas day as we've cancelled Christmas! Hope you're doing better today, Thumper. x
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Post by ghost on Nov 13, 2007 12:12:05 GMT -5
haha can you imagine it.....the whole forum can come. we can take our laptops and sit in the garden and talk on line to each other..... we'll have our own karaoke kristmas! (i can sing 'white rabbit' just like grace slick!) ;D did i hear someone say flavored vodka slushies?!!! ghost p.s. off topic is fine.. this forum would never have been started if it weren't for some of us going off topic and 'chatting' too much.. that's why we left and formed our own..
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Post by sleepflower on Nov 14, 2007 5:51:02 GMT -5
I like it when people go off topic! I think that's what makes the site like real conversation (but safer) and makes this place so friendly. I'm not known for my karaoke skills, but I'd love to hear the rest of you! Mango vodka slushies??? Plus if there's any wine around that you want rid of, I'm your gal!
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Post by ghost on Nov 20, 2007 12:41:40 GMT -5
hey i just saw this! exalted back at ya!
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