...Hiding among the living...

[BeautifulNothing]

I guess i jsut need a place to vent atm...
I feel at such a loss, my T doesnt really understand, I am going to EMDR to deal with my Trauma... I am so immensly terrified...
Eye movement desensitation and reprocessing, wtf?
I am almost afraid that i will work, I mean, i have been this way for as long as i can remeber...I cant remember my real childhood, that is, if i really had one, with out being traumatized...i dont know, i will be on and off for a while... I just dont knwo what to do...
anyone ever done EMDR?
I need advice, like what do i expect? I am afraid

[ghost]

hi beautifulnothing!

glad you are here..
i just wanted to mention that i have done emdr once..
the psychologist who preformed it was trained by the inventor (shapiro) himself.. with me he used headphones and i listened to music.. hidden in the music were sound patterns that activate neurological responses in a pattern that tends to shake loose stuck bad memories they say..
meanwhile they usually talk you through a kind of exercise over a chosen traumatic event..

at the time i had it (7 years ago?) i read all over the internet about it.. and could not find one unsafe comment regarding it.. unfortunately for me i found out it is not entirely 'safe'..
i would advise a good deal of 'talk therapy' first about whatever events you will be discussing for emdr.. and if you are what is called 'dissociative' as i am you should proceed with caution..
dissociatives often don't react as well to hypnosis & emdr.. i didn't.. i felt terrible..

if however you are plagued by traumatic memory, it can quickly dissipate painful recurring nightmares/flashbacks.. so it's a trade-off..

anyway, i don't want to scare you..
i just think it's always good to ask questions and be cautious..
well, i guess because i'm ad & don't trust?!
haha..

;D
p.s.
it doesn't hurt or shock or anything freaky at all..

take care,
ghost

[sleepflower]

I'll try to reply to this tomorrow but I'm still not completely together, so my brain ain't working right

Welcome BaeutifulNothing! Glad you're here!
xx