thumper in her place

[sleepflower]

Thumper, my memory is awful, and I'm sure that it's down to all the ad drugs over the years. I have books full of lists for everything - I mean everything! Even to remind me to wash my hair, clean out bunny...shopping lists...daily 'to-do' lists at work. I have no idea what I'd do without my lists.
I know what you mean about not wanting to listen to people - me too...everyone I know wants to talk about babies, their (or other people's) baby's feeding/sleeping patterns - I'm not interested! Your plan to not feed it sounds right to me.
Congratulations for not drinking for so long! That's really great.

CBT has to be worth a try, as has anything that may help.

[ghost]

thumper,
i have a grown son that i adore..
but i tell you he is another obsessive/compulsive type like i am..
and he will talk my ears off about role playing game details that i have no clue whatsoever what he means..
i nod and am polite to a point and just let it all sail right over my head..

i learned it from having a mom who was literally a compulsive talker.. she was like a faucet that couldn't be shut off and i was only an ear to say 'oh' and 'uh-huh' at appropriate intervals for her. not a person in my own right.. i finally had to cut that relationship off. very glad i did..

we only owe others so much.. we owe ourselves kindness too..
don't you think?
glad your meds are helping calm you down..
sounds very much like the way i felt on clonopin..
i thought of you last night because i was having such racing thoughts that i could NOT turn off in my brain.. my head felt like a popcorn popper.. i think i had too much caffiene.. lol!

sorry i don't remember for sure, but are you bipolar?
there was a link in my latest psychcentral newsletter about cbt helping people with bipolar.. i'll post it in the info area and put that one in red in case you're interested..

take care,
ghost

[sleepflower]

I'm glad that the meds are helping, Thumper. Are you on a waiting list for CBT? I am, and I've been warned that it may be nine months wait! I hope your wait is shorter....a lot shorter!

You sound to be a lot more in control: you're noticing and analysing your mood which I think has to be a good thing.

Keep talking to us, my dear. I hope you level out soon.

[sleepflower]

I hope you get the CBT - there's a real shortage of people around here who offer it, unfortunately. Never mind. I hope it's helpful for you, Thumper.

Good luck for this coming week. It's hard to be around other people when, as you say, there's no escape, isn't it?

When I went away with 20 strangers in January I was really brave and told them straight what I did and didn't want to do. I spent three days in an isolated bird hide, on my own, which gave me enough time to myself so that I could deal with socialising in the evenings. If you can do anything like that while you're away, I really recommend it. I felt guilty about how people would react but made myself tell them straight. They all took it really well and some told me that they admired me for doing what I wanted and not following the crowd!!

About my therapy...best not ask! See my update in my Corner... Thanks for asking.

[ghost]

i'm with you on the trouble sleeping part..
it's kinda ridiculous.. i stay up late then i can't go to sleep..
finally in the early a.m. i fall asleep but can't stay asleep..
i feel like i'm nocturnal half the time.. bored & awake & by myself!


could be a side effect of the meds too..
that and the anxiety..
i know some of them increase anxiety before they level out and then start to stablize you.. part of the risk factor..

you seem to be on top of things, thumper!
hope cbt works well for you,
ghost

[sleepflower]

Sweetie, that's really sad. I haven't seen the news today but I'll be looking at that: it's awful news.

Your son is lucky to have somebody as wonderful as you in his life.

*kicks the therapist in the shins for Thumper*

I think you're being really brave in going to the group and I really hope it helps you.

[sleepflower]

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;)how are you feeling now?

Its awful when you cant sleep, especially when it feels like your the only one!


stay safe
xxx

[raining]

Thats great news thumper!

[ghost]

hope you are having pleasant dreams..

[raining]

Oh Im so sorry to hear that,

please give him lots of get well hugs from me How is he doing? what caused it (sorry you can tell me not to be nosy!)

Thinking of you both

[ghost]

hope he makes a turnaround soon!!


my son used to have asthma and would get so sick every year,
it scared me to death, rapid shallow breathing and vomiting..
had to be on a ventilator at times, high fevers..
he was such a little guy..
but he's outgrown it now, thank god!

i just know your son will be ok!!

prayers for you both,
ghost

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[ghost]

it's ok, thumper..




sometimes you just need to know it's ok even when you're not 'on' ..

you are still the best!
ghost

[ghost]

wow, must be something in the water?
i had a run-in with my oh over the weekend too.. and find myself feeling like i just cannot handle social interaction in the 3d world at all anymore.. even slight contact/few words with people like when i buy coffee leave me telling myself 'you idiot' over & over.. i think i just have such permanent social awkwardness, and i hate the feeling so much that the only thing i do is take it out on myself, making matters worse? i feel like i'm not understood and do not understand the outsiders.. human/inhumans alike..

thumper, it's good to hear you again.. sorry it's due to this!
sometimes it really seems like people are such a huge risk to deal with! i know there are good ones, but i can't tell the difference right off.. maybe that's why i always tell myself in my head what an idiot i am? like i'm supposed to know.. ?
when it's confirmed it just is too much disappointment to take again..



ghost