Post by emma on Aug 17, 2007 8:34:59 GMT -5
Howdy All,
Pete! Holy Cow, lyme's disease!!!!!! Sorry to hear and I am glad you are getting better. I'm always amazed that it has not happened to me with all the time I spend in the woods. So far I have been lucky, but many of my friends have it. Most of them seem to go thru that first sick part and then seem to be free of it? Is that meds? because I think you never really are free of it - right?
So, I have been making a very conscious effort to change my drinking habits. Not ready to completely quit. The good news is that for the last month (with small exception) I have done really well. Something seems to be clicking inside me. I just started to realize 2 things: 1. I don't like being drunk! 2. I feel so much stronger without it. I was drinking most nights for ummm...the past year? Maybe longer. I don't feel any craving. I never felt that alcohol called me. I always thought that I made a conscious decision to drink it, trying to check out of my normal consciousness. It was never like cigarettes where you have an really strong craving. It's just been me sabotaging me. Now, I feel like I am really accomplishing something and I have not felt that in the last 3 years.
Today is my best-friend-who-hates-me's birthday. Happy Birthday Michele.
Em
Pete! Holy Cow, lyme's disease!!!!!! Sorry to hear and I am glad you are getting better. I'm always amazed that it has not happened to me with all the time I spend in the woods. So far I have been lucky, but many of my friends have it. Most of them seem to go thru that first sick part and then seem to be free of it? Is that meds? because I think you never really are free of it - right?
So, I have been making a very conscious effort to change my drinking habits. Not ready to completely quit. The good news is that for the last month (with small exception) I have done really well. Something seems to be clicking inside me. I just started to realize 2 things: 1. I don't like being drunk! 2. I feel so much stronger without it. I was drinking most nights for ummm...the past year? Maybe longer. I don't feel any craving. I never felt that alcohol called me. I always thought that I made a conscious decision to drink it, trying to check out of my normal consciousness. It was never like cigarettes where you have an really strong craving. It's just been me sabotaging me. Now, I feel like I am really accomplishing something and I have not felt that in the last 3 years.
Today is my best-friend-who-hates-me's birthday. Happy Birthday Michele.
Em
