Tuesday Feb 20

[emma]

Time is flying it seems. Not in the greatest mood and not very chatty lately. Hope everyone is alright. Pete's off playing I see. Hope tw is friendly.

Haven't been able to ride my bike in quite a while, so that gets me down. Today looks promissing though.

Got a call from a friend about another friend who accidentally OD'd. Just an acquaintance of mine, but a good friend of hers. Took a week before they found him. That is so sad for his friends who feel like they should've looked for him sooner. He got the meds because he was in a car accident. Just took too much it seems.

Lost another friend about 7 years ago the same way. Only he was a good friend. That time it was heroine and you know, with that, its russian roulette. You're number's gonna come up eventually.

[ghost]

aww.. that's sad news, em..
that happened with one of toxic's schoolfriends on her block..
sister went to wake her up for school and she was gone.. od'd on reds..

it's a sad world.

em. pete's wife is bugging me.
i mean maybe she doesn't want him to be a good guy..
some people need dysfunction to feel better about themselves..
she's sure testing it to the limit, don't you think?..
i don't get it..
ghost

[ghost]

HEY!
it's pete's birthday and he's not here!
what do we do?
...
hm..

[ghost]

there we go..
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[emma]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO PETE!!!!!!

Oh, man. Too bad he wasn't here. We could've had a party

Ghost,
Pete's wife has been "bugging" me for a LONG time. She pushes the envelope for sure. She pushes MY envelope. When you are right in your head, you don't want to hurt others. I don't get it either. You and me are the same that way. Pete also. The thing is, exploding is always bad. Better to make a plan...you know what I mean?

[ghost]

yeah..
i mean i try to put myself in her shoes..
i think about what i've been through with bdhp & his a.d.d. hurts and trials..
yeah, i punished him for awhile.. i seriously did.. but it was just enough and until he understood fully how his actions were hurting me.. then i let off..
because as dysfunctional as we may be what is the purpose, you know? i mean what's the point of the punishing? it doesn't help anyone, either of us or our son..
she needs to be held accountable too somehow.. in my opinion..
their counselor should put it to her in a way that she now has to own that she is a problem in the relationship.. not a part of the solution..
well, anyway.. hope they have a good little vacation and pete gets a little decent birthday attention..